you want me to push a WHAT out of me?

Weeks 37-Delivery (Month 9): Watermelon

At week 37, your pregnancy is considered full term, meaning baby is likely to thrive after birth. Baby spends these last weeks in preparation for the outside world… meaning careful refinement of the blink, suck, inhale and exhale. Meconium, which you’ll probably find in the first diaper, is accumulating in the intestines. If (okay, as) you worry about giving birth, consider what it’s like for the little one. During the journey out of your womb, baby will produce more stress hormones than any other time in life.
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well, let me just tell you something...it does feel like a little melon is in my belly at times. particularly a melon that likes to kick down at my bladder at the most inconvenient times (wait...is there ever a convenient time?) making me have to rush to the bathroom only to squeeze out about two drops of pee.

i sure have loved this pregnancy. i've loved both of my experiences. i do feel smaller this time around which has been nice. my movement has been a bit better, i'm not taking 5 minutes to roll over in the bed at night, and this little belly has served as a nice bench seat for emma during the 18 hours out of the day she wants to be held.

i am in the final days down to having my beautiful little baby girl #2. i can't wait to meet her. it was such a special experience the first time around. i just can't wait to hopefully be even more present to this birth, now knowing a bit more about what to expect. i also hope all the arrangements to have emma looked after come beautifully into place. and finally, i hope that this baby does like her big sister and wait until nana gets here to make her presence into this world a reality. in fact, 5 days early was just wonderful for me the first time around...i'm good with that again.

let's just hope that life with two babies is a nice and smooth transition. i know it will come with it's trials, but i have learned that i need to improve upon my stress-handling capabilities. shoot, is that what god is doing to me? throwing me smack-dab in the middle of a stress ball situation and saying, "here, you said you wanted to learn to manage stress better. voila." well, he never gives us more than we can handle, right? RIGHT? HELLO????

oy. i need a nap.